It is hard to shift from an immature kid to a gentleman. To many changes happened in me when I jump my level to high school from elementary. The environment feels nostalgic. Uneasiness is on my weary nerves. I gave up to many unforgettable memories which just can't get out of my confused mind. It sucks, but it is the high way I chose. Equivalent trade, I gave up something to achieve something I want. I felt I've become a sensitive person, maybe its because I think too much about my feelings and my feelings towards others. Change is really a mystery. I don't know if whats gonna happen in the future. Changes in a person will change the direction of thy life and others life, somehow it's like a chain that affects others.

What if I never change from being a kid to a teenager? Will I ever survived this life I'm having right now, the life of problems and dilemmas? Doubts and lies?

It is quite confusing for me, to understand such phenomena. Maybe I change because of the people around me or the influences in me by my comrades. Maybe I change because of the fact that I am growing up. Maybe I change for it is my destiny in life. Change for the better or change for the worst? I don't really know. I'm confused.

I can't say that my present status is now permanent. I'm still under progress and development. I'm still on a journey to search for myself and I believe that every moment at school, home and hobby place will be one of my memories someday for I change.

I still continue to change because it is a mystery.

-Paolo Quinalayo-